Shiny Violet Star

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

The Gazette World Tour DogmaticTrois 2016 San Francisco Live Report

I thought I would get this blog post out while the SF show is still fresh. I'm really really exhausted still but I'm going to see if I can write this up all in one go. 

First off, I'm so happy that I finally got to see this band in person. I legit thought I would have to cross this off of my bucket list when I eventually get to one day go to Tokyo. But instead, the Gazette came to my home away from home. <3 I love San Francisco as a city so it made me really happy that they not only got to perform there but experience the city for a short time as well. This was like a ten year old dream that I wanted to eventually fulfill. Ten years of loving this band and they finally went across the damn ocean before I could. <3 <3 <3 


So onto my day. First off, I got no sleep. I was up pretty late skyping with friends Tiffiny and Mai about the concert. We were all planning to meet up in the morning, have lunch, and walk down together. I'm REALLY glad I got to get close/better acquainted to these girls. It was super great to be around different energy and just honestly get to know each other. We have a lot in common and have been talking pretty frequently. It's been such a short time but I feel like they're younger sisters to me or something from just talking about things outside of the cosplay comm and interests. Like I've been through some of the stuff they've told me about and I can just understand and relate on so many different levels. It probably sounds sappy as shit but it was nice skyping and talking like that. I mainly had skyped them because I was doing my nails at the same time and I wasn't about to be the dumb bitch who got nail polish on her phone. ahaha...


In the end they called it a night and I just happened to not be able to sleep. I was honestly just way too excited and every time I have to do a very complex make up look-nothing but that will be on my mind. So around five o'clock I ended up starting on my make up. I kind of wanted to do a dark gold/bronze/and black eye make up look. At first I wanted to do a cut crease but maybe that doesn't work with shimmery shadows. -no idea- 

I was pretty satisfied with it. I wore a liquid lipstick from the NYX line. Embellishment was so pretty and it shows up differently depending on the light. My outfit was really complex. I had a blazer that was supposed to go with it but I am so glad I didn't bring it because it was nice weather out and incredibly hot in the live hall when the concert was. 

I ended up wearing a d.i.a spaghetti strap top, my black skirt with the feather chains and the buckled slit was from a brand called Dig Deep, my killer heeled boots were from Christian Siriano, and my cardigan was from BPN. I was pretty satisfied with my look. I kind of feel like I looked a little frumpy. I've gained a little weight from some stuff at home. My body is literally clinging onto whatever food I can get and it's making me gain more weight than lose it. OTL ughhh. I want fruit and veggies... </3 






I kept my hair straight knowing it would fuck up later. I just parted it a different way. I doused myself in Gucci Rush perfume because apparently it's Uruha's favorite. Swear it's out of coincidence. I've been wearing that shit since fifth grade because I had a bit of a Posh Spice fixation and Victoria Beckham liked Gucci. So I wore that perfume and kind of had a laugh about it since Uruha is my bias. Out the door I went. 


I got to San Francisco early in the morning-around 9:30 I was dropped off in Japan Town. I was waiting for the other girls to arrive and derped around a bit. I was super sad to know that Benkyodo was closed on Sundays because I was crazy hungry and wanted manjyuu for breakfast. In the end I wound up sitting outside enjoying the weather. Trust me, SF was having THE NICEST weather.

Eventually Tiffiny came and we wandered around for a little bit waiting for Mai to arrive so we could eat. Surprisingly Len showed up first and then Mai. All four of us went to Mifune Don for lunch where we ate our fill in food knowing we wouldn't be having dinner or anything else until rather late. 

I had a salad and Okonomiyaki because I was seriously starving from not having anything the day before in my stomach. Because of that, lunch was heavenly and I cleared everything I had. Though the girls were amused that I didn't like tomatoesss... 





After lunch we went to the make up store and Kinokuniya to look at make up, fashion magazines, and anime goods. Thankfully there wasn't a lot of Sailor Moon goods. I might have seriously cried otherwise. The make up store DID however, have my OTP plastered in the window so I did have to take a picture of that. It made me happy. 

We went to the bathroom knowing it would be a pain to later on and then headed towards the concert venue around 12:30.

Surprisingly there was a line but not a crazy one. Mai and Tiffiny separated from me because they had VIP tickets. This left me with Len lining up surprisingly near the doors. We waited almost seven hours to get inside surprisingly. I made a lot of friends in the line and tried to use my phone sparingly noticing how my phone was losing a charge incredibly fast. ;______; 

Something that amused me was people stunned me on how young they were even because I had gotten into them when I was 15 so it's hard for me to fathom others getting into them at an even younger age. Because this concert was like a ten year old dream of mine that I had to wait for. So I sat back innerly chuckling when peeps mention a newer era of the Gazette when you know damn well they used to be crazier and you feel sad these kids missed out on that bit. Back when they were kind of ero/guro. -cues to the Wife PV-  Hell the old glory days of v-kei were amazing (and a bit horrible if you look at how people dressed lmao) but it's sometimes sad newer and younger fans didn't get to experience it. 



Seven hours slowly inched past. I felt the adrenaline rush as soon as VIP was let in. I was super clever (apparently a lot of people didn't catch on and i don't know whyyyy) and threw Tiffiny 55.00 for get me some merch since I was hearing that VIP at the other lives happened to be buying everything and it would be sold out. I told her to get the the BlackMoral bear keychain and the Malum tour t-shirt because it looked prettiest to me. She was the real MVP and seriously pulled through. Thank you so much hun! She was telling me later on chat how people behind her in line were saying out the keychain was already sold out and here she had managed to snag one for me. Perhaps she had gotten ahold of the last one? -chuckle-


When we were let inside I was with my new friend and stolen waifu of Kei's, Mei-Len...and another new friend Tina and a couple of other people. <3 Mei and I instantly bonded over our love of J-Rock in line. She borrowed my eyeliner because she felt like she lacked make up. I had sunglasses on when she met me and was like 'Oh Dollywink isn't that great. You should really look into KatVonD' AND THIS was the moment I threw of my sunglasses to show her my eye make up in which Mei went 'HOLY SHIT.' 

Me: "Girl I AM Kat Von D." because I was wearing one of her huge ass eye shadow palettes on my eyes and her foundation. >;D b

Mei totally wasn't expecting me eye make up game to be that strong underneath those glasses. Clearly I had hid my power level. ahahaha It was probably the funniest moment I had in awhile. 

So here we were in the crowd. I was Tiffiny and Mai a little further upfront since they got in first because of VIP privileges. And in terms of myself, I got up pretty close. As soon as my feet hit the wood floor however, I realized my feet were going to die. They were giving out fast. Originally I had planned to wear Forever21 ankle boots but I had obtained some designer Christian Siriano boots and thought since they were designer they'd be comfortable. Such a huge mistake. They weren't and were absolutely the fucking death of me throughout the concert. I had wanted to wear heels because I am literally 5 ft. Almost everyone towers over me but oh well...I tried to combat it. 




And finally the lights dimmed and the concert started. 

Holy. Shit. 

First off, I had stopped going to concerts at 18 years old. I am now almost 25. My last J-Rock concert was Miyavi back in 2010. I had seen An Cafe and LM.C previously. But absolutely fucking nothing compared to the Gazette. The anticipation for each member to arrive on stage was amazing. 

I was really amazed too. From where I was standing I was able to see Ruki and Uruha the best and they happen to be my favorite members. Each member honestly was really fucking gorgeous. They've aged so gracefully.

They have this type of stage presence where they just...drown you.Like I had so much fun that I almost forgot that my feet were killing me. I managed to throw my hands up and just jump when Ruki screamed at us to 'fucking jump'.  Ruki was super dominating and really tried his hardest to get the crowd hyped up. Which worked at first...but slowly dwindled. I'll get to my catty bitching about people in a moment however-

And then on the right side was Uruha who looked sooooo gorgeous. I've always had liked him even when I first was introduced to the band. He had this really cat-like smooth/cool aura about him. I could seriously watch him play guitar all day. He really has the style about him when he plays. I would just gawk/gush over this guitar solos during the live because they were beautifully played. Plus he's really gorgeous. I remember wanting to emulate Uruha's look back in high school because I had a huge ass crush on him out of everyone. 

Aoi looked really comfortable playing the guitar. He was really chill. Where Uruha is like...totally smooth and cool to the point of untouchable almost because he's such a diva-Aoi is like the opposite spectrum of that. He's really cool in a different type of way. I really didn't get to see him much because he was back on the left side and I was towards the front right but when I did see Aoi he looked like he was just smirking chilling... 

Reita was such a fucking derpy guy. I also didn't see him too much either but when I did see him he was really riling the crowd up. His eyes would roll back into his head as he made really goofy faces. It was kind of hilarious. He's such an interesting fellow. I think he has a rougher playing style as a bassist than chill and sleek Uruha and Aoi.

And then there was Kai in the back just smiling away. It was also super hard to see him but he's probably to most sweet/most genki of the members. I wish I could say more but it was really hard to fucking see him. </3 

Highlights: 

Song wise-my favorites were Ominous and Undying, which I know are newer songs but they sound so fucking beautiful live. They have beautiful transitions and their songs that I feel show case Ruki's vocals the most because you get a little bit of everything. Dogma was really well played too. Like I said Uruha had some AMAZING guitar solos. His hair would just fly around as he played as if he was some type of diva. He had sparkles and everything. LOL 

Ruki has this thing where when he sings-it makes you feel like he's gazing in your direction or singing for you. That's all I know how to explain unless senpai truly fucking noticed me. ahaha He'd stand up at the podium/riser thingie above us and just look in our direction. At one point I felt like when I was reaching out and when he reached out at the same time- we connected hands even though I was far away and clearly didn't physically connect. Sounds cheesy but it's what I truly felt in that moment. It was like of 'dokidoki' type of experience where you were like 'uwa are we connected because we have the same emotions over this song?' 

Hilarious moment was when people were motioning hearts with their hands. I was first to do it. I think. Hell I was even hesitant doing it because it wasn't so badass but it had to be done because I like them all so much and the cute side of me came out to want to show love.  Ruki fondly responded back with a good ol' 'fuck you' finger which made me crack up laughing. He is quite the character hm?

Another highlight of course was the fanservice. There was a moment where Ruki had the mic chord stretched out and placed it in his mouth. Like god damn sir.... Could you be any sexier? The other thing that occurred I didn't get to see it because at one point there were tall people in front of me (;_______; </3) but Ruki also apparently licked up the lantern stand and such...he was being all naughty with it from what Tiffiny was telling me later on. I wanted to cry because I really wanted to see it LOL 

Tiffiny and I then got into conversation as to what type of girlfriends each member would have and what shit they would be into considering the weird kinky shit they do on stage sometimes. LOL -amused shitless-

At the end of the show during the encore segment the boys (except for Kai because he had to play the drums) were in the front and Aoi and Uruha got really close to each other. At one point all the members were just smiling. They were happy to be there. I'm not exactly sure if the crowd made them happy but I think just them playing overseas together as a band family made them truly happy. 

Personally, I jumped around as much as I could. Screamed until my voice was shot. I sweated because it was so hot in the live hall to the point where I was gross and my hair was soaked like I had taken a shower or some shit. I tried to mouth the lyrics to Filth in Beauty and Undying because I have listening to Undying and Dogma way too many fucking times to count. I know Ruki would try to have us sing along but some of the crowd really sucked at interacting back. Tiffiny said that Ruki was laughing a little and I'm sure it's because some of the lyrics are in English and there was barely a response back...that bit made me sad because I was belted what I knew as loud as I could when he would cease singing to hear us <3 ;_; 

In terms of their sound. It's so hard to listen to the Gazette's songs in studio version now. I tried in the car and it sounds so flat in comparison to when you hear them live. I've watched live recordings before and I thought those were amazing but hearing the real deal in front of you does something to you. I've never had the experience of loving a band's live work over their studio work but I just have. Of course their studio songs are amazing but they really out-do/compete with themselves in terms of their music and doing it live. It's an entirely different experience and it's one I would suffer for all over again because it was just that great. 

So here's the cons and worries about the San Francisco live now that I have almost all of the great stuff out of the way: 

The crowd was really challenging. People were super pushy and I kept having to place a hand in front of my face in order to ensure I wouldn't get hit by someone. I understand that it's a rock concert. My hands were literally in some girl's hair at one point. It's bound to happen but there's cultural different between American and Japanese lives. There were a couple of GORGEOUSLY dressed Japanese fans who I saw in line and in the balcony area. They do in sync headbanging and it was really quite the spectacle because I've never ever got to witness it in person. The problem with American fans is were are never as one as a unit like the Japanese fans are and it becomes slightly disappointing in terms of Japanese bands coming over....

Which brings me to the disheartening Encore chant. I don't know if it was because we were exhausted from screaming our heads off but it wasn't as great as I wished it had been. A lot of us were torn on what to chant which caused confusion I am sure. We went between 'en-co-re' and 'Ga-ze-tto'. But it would never last long and fade. Sometimes I wondered if it was out of exhaustion because I know I would until my voice was shot completely. But then we just died a little and couldn't get in sync the way we needed to. We tried some clapping and stomping but I'm not sure if it was over being tired or over the crowd not being able to agree on a chant. I feel like it might have also disheartened the band/maybe had the impression that we weren't as hyped about them being there. :( which isn't true. Just...there clearly were issues with the crowd. 

Another pet peeve of mine which shouldn't be a pet peeve but is-is the people who clearly aren't a part of this scene being here and wanting to be up front with their siblings or girlfriends. That or as Tiffiny and Mai agreed on-the younger fans are here for the Kuroshitsuji opening but not for the actual Gazette/J-Rock experience. We kind of just suspected that along with people tagging along but not knowing what they're in for truly as an experience.... That or just not knowing how J-Rock concerts work.

Also while I understand wanting people to tag along-if you're not jumping and just staying there without movement you are annoying and are fucking up the flow. There were clearly people there who I honestly thought were bandwagoning along because this was a big deal for the people they knew and they didn't know what they were getting themselves into. Maybe that is bitchy of me to say but it really did mess up the chants, interactions that the band was hopeful for, and all. I could tell who really live this life or even previously did by the way they dressed and did their make up. I don't mean to throw shade but I felt like some people were bound to get fucking trampled over. ALSO what didn't help about this situation was the fact that people who usually don't go to these types of lives (we all know what I'm talking about if you're familiar with lives and such) if that they seriously don't know concert etiquette AT ALL... Which gets into why concert/live etiquette is so very important. 

While we had that end of people being stale about the live on the other end we had the COMPLETE opposite situation. There were a couple people who were clearly drunk and over did it. Tiffiny told me of being punched in the face by the one guy who eventually got escorted out. While moshing might be normal for American rock concerts- they don't occur these and people were so sardined together that it would truly make it dangerous. So we had the non-violent people who didn't look like they belonged there and then the people who were stupid violent beyond comprehension. Two totally different extremes. 

ALSO I had a serious problem with people who thought they could push up front. Why? I had been waiting there since 12:30 to have a decent spot. If you have only been waiting there since 6:30 you ARE NOT entitled to the front. Understand people wanting to be with friends and that's somewhat fine I suppose but there were some people who would shove me out of the way to be in front and I would literally invade their space to kind of politely passive aggressively say 'you absolutely can not do that to me'. I'm not the type of girl to push up front either. It's rude as fuck. If you haven't been waiting in line early you shouldn't be entitled to that privilege. Point said and done. My friends also had this problem and peeve too. Manage your fucking time wisely if you want up there so badly. 

....Speaking of entitlement. Let's talk about the assholes who had their cellphones out. Now first off, I really do wish the Gazette had sold and permitted people who had professional DSLRs with press passes. That would have been a beautiful way display the show to the fans and also give people an idea of what it was like at it if they had no idea what this whole J-Rock/V-Kei thing was about. That I am a bit sad about. Press passes would have been lovely and I think people would have truly enjoyed that. HOWEVER people taking cell phone pics and video really pissed me off. First off, you're not entitled to that shit. Second off, it's rude as fuck. There was this one guy just blatantly there with his phone out and Ruki stared at him noticing. I could tell he was a bit disappointed even though the show had to go on. I seriously wanted to grab people's cell phones and chuck them across the fucking live hall. It's disrespectful fuck. I understand some people who attended were bandwagoning  or didn't get the memo but they clearly stated not to take pics or record before the show even started. 

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST THE BIGGEST PET PEEVE EVER... The people who bitched about VIP. I have a lot to say about this and I hope some of you learn from this and realize it's not me being bitchy but me trying to educate you. A lot of people online and IN LINE out loud and loudly were complaining about what VIP consisted of. The only issue people should have had/been worried about was the Meet and Greet being after the show. That I can understand because were all really gross and sweaty afterwards. Other than that? No. You guys should have known what you were signing up for. Especially those of you who say you're such a huge fan of the Gazette or have been listening to them for years. Since when have you ever seen Japanese fans be allowed the privilege of taking photos with their fans? Have they ever been easily given autographs? What makes you think they'd suddenly change this for their overseas fans when they haven't even given their Japanese fans that honor? That would be incredibly unfair to those fans. We were privileged enough not to be in an arena but a small live hall up close and personal with them. Because if any of you have seen their newer lives-they're almost always in huge arenas filled with tons of people. I've also been told general admission tickets are not only a bitch to get but incredibly expensive on top of the challenge to score them. 50-60.00 for a GA ticket is VERY reasonable if you keep that in mind. If you have paid 225.00 for a VIP pass you are getting up close before anyone else and you are getting goods before anyone else. As well as the meet and greet for a very limited/short time. Like literally hi and bye. This should have been expected. I know many people are confused about this because they've went to XJapan or Dir en Grey have gotten pictures and what not or spotted people in public and took pictures with them. But these other bands are extremely well traveled. There is obviously going to be a huge cultural difference with the Gazette considering they've done a limited number of overseas lives. I will agree VIP should have been separated off since so many people who didn't wait or pay nearly as long or enough felt entitled to the front. I get that pet peeve. I get the meet and greet deal. But to expect autographs and pictures is pushing that. For people to complain loudly outloud just came off as bratty and entitled. Sit your ass down and have several seats. I can understand the confusion if you're haven't been a long time fan but don't you dare fucking brag about being one and then bitch about VIP as if you didn't expect it to be that way. Because if you were along time fan you'd know how this band rolls. If you're truly a fan of the Gazette you pay for VIP not for the perks but for the love of the band and to support them. It's the experience that counts-not grabbing all you can get. 

They're incredibly private as much as they are personable. They interact with their fans (come off as personable) enough on their SMS to show that they do acknowledge their fans and want to show us a peek into their lives or be able to share their thoughts/experiences with us at a distance. That gap should be respected. They're just as human as we are and I personally wouldn't appreciate my every move being filmed or photographed. It would make me a very self conscious person. People are seriously given a inch and they take a fucking mile. Jesus christ. -rant done- 

SO back to the good things. I'm so glad and happy for Tiffiny because she caught a pick. She totally deserved to after getting punched the face like that. She caught Uruha's pick that lucky girl! I told her to check if it was a used one. I looked closely at the front and told her to turn it over to see if I could see nail marks on the back. There was so it was heavily used one. <3 <3 Tina was in tears over being able to snag a drumstick. I was really happy for her and gave her a hug because it was so adorable how emotional she was over that moment. It was really sweet. I'm very happy for them both.

After the show I chucked off my shoes in shock that I had just took part and witnessed such an amazing live. I haven't attended a concert like that in years and it was such an amazing experience. I was so exhausted from the adrenaline rush. I sank to the floor and I was just dying. The pain in my feet and body was killing me. Tiffiny had my merch in her bag and I needed to hand over some cash because my keychain ended up being more than I had expected. Security shooed us off of the sidewalk even tho there were people still on it which slightly annoyed me because clearly I was waiting for friends and was bare foot sitting to myself. VIP was still going on and I thought it was dumb off them to shoo people away when there were clearly people waiting for people they knew to get out of the meet and greet. Any time after the meet and greet was over would have been fine but it was really stupid of them to do that. I asked the guy 'how far do you need us to be because we're waiting for friends and I don't want to get told off by you again.' in which he never even disclosed to me an answer. I was super annoyed and walked across the street to wait. Which was honestly quite dangerous because there were shady characters across the street. Honestly, the band was going to leave outside on the side or back so I don't know why they were being unreasonable about the front when the event wasn't technically even over yet. Eventually we did walk back over because there were some really shady characters cursing at us or just people saying some un-necessary shit at us that made me feel unsafe about being in that area across the street. I met up with Tiffiny and Mai-got my beautiful merch and bid goodbye to the girls.

Len escorted me back to Japan Town as I hobbled my ass back. Which I super appreciated. There I waited for Miguel who didn't attend the live like planned but at least wanted to have dinner with me. We ended up gong to the Korean place on Fillmore that stays open til 2 am since it was one of the few places open on  a Sunday night. I had a bulgogi bento and Miguel had udon. Ran into some people who were having dinner also and say hi and bye...

And then finally went home to take a half assed shower and die on my floor because I was so sore and exhausted.

Despite the hindrances and peeves from the concert it was still an amazing concert to go to. It's been such a huge bucket list item since I grew to love them. I forgot exactly how I discovered the Gazette but I remember seeing 'Zetsu' and being hit in the heart. <3 It was such a fast paced song and usually it was really appealing. The band has grown up so much from those days. Their sound is stronger and heavier. I adored the Dogma album because it brought in the old with the new and it's exactly what I wanted. The previous albums had a lot of electronics in them that I didn't care for because Ruki has a voice and should use it without the effects. The melodies and screams in the Dogma and Undying single are beautiful. 

They're even more beautiful in person. Going to see them again really brought together the theme of bringing the old back with the new and combining them. This went for my personal style as well. I have kind of retired from doing rock/darker fashions for a while now but for the concert I made an exception. I don't know if you can call my look from Sunday, gyaru but it was a combination of everything dark I loved about my old school J-Rock days and the sexy style of gyaru that I loved and adored. 

Along with that let me say-this concert brought people together for a night who used to live this life even if they retired or we had differences among each other personally. For one night we were all brought back to the same area and had one thing in common and it was the love for this band. And that truly means something no? It's like all of us had one heart for a slight second as cheesy as that sounds. Funny how music and things for old times sake can do that... 

Anyway, if you had went I hope you enjoyed your time there. I loved it and it was an amazing experience. I'm glad I got to share with friends both old and new. I'll never forget that night. I didn't need pictures or videos because it's etched in my memory. <3 






Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Cherry Blossom Festival 2016

Almost every year I end up going to two main events. Cherry Blossom Festival and Fanime. While this year, I am opting out of Fanime, I tried to salvage that whole thing by attending Cherry Blossom Festival and participating in some stuff. For months since I was invited to participate in the J-Fashion show, I had been prepping for it. Which should explain those insane hauls I was doing a bit back. I had intended to buy an outfit for the Gazette but I ended up going all out and buying an outfit for the fashion show as well (along with some other things to make shipping worth it), new make up for new looks, and had even delved back into the wonders of nail art after retiring that hobby in 2013 once I had started working at a child's party center and then left that to go into retail. Mainly because I lacked the time, broke nails, ect. ect. It wasn't worth the efforts I used to place in the fashion back then. And it makes sense as to why.

I would be lying if I said that this whole string of events and hauls didn't re-kindle my love for gyaru. There were so many things I gave up around a certain period of my life and I feel like I've slowly reconnected with all of that in the past couple of months. Truly it feels like I've been reconnecting with my identity and it's such a crazy feeling. I had probably lost it for awhile. Four or five years even way before certain things took place. The more I am more comfortable with my external life-the more I've been indulging in the things that make me a happier and better person.

 Being a college student only now, it's given me the ability to do my nails and indulge a bit more than when I was working miserably. I think is just now occurred to me, I can do what I want and that I should enjoy it while I can before I delve into a writing or teaching profession and get much older.


I did my nails in four hours. They didn't exactly turn out the way I wanted them too honestly. Working with nail tape is a lot more difficult than it looks. Especially since I didn't have the specific set of nail scissors than I needed. I wanted to do laced up nail with the tape that looked very teal and agejo. In the end it just looked abstract. Near the end I had completely fucking forgot that I had bought nail stickers with moons and stars and could have kicked myself. In the end, I just ended up decking my nails out in jewels. I'm proud to say that as I am typing this, none of it has popped off or chipped. I did them Friday and it is now going on the second week of Tuesday. So at least that says something. Watch them stay on and grow out being all gross and shit.

The only unfortunate part about myself was my inability to sleep that night. I was so wired and ready to go that I couldn't relax. I kept plotting in the mind as I laid there how I was going to do my hair and make up in my head. By 3:00 am I knew I would oversleep. A big mistake of mine was applying tons of skincare too. I had done a sheet mask earlier in the day around noon after a facial peel and a couple other things- and then at 4 am I left on another sheet mask and applied essence from Etude House. I assumed because it was going to be cold and rainy that my skin would just dry the fuck out and that it would need all the moisture it could get. Boy... was I so wrong. Applying primer was okay but as soon applied two different concealers (because they kept slipping) and NARS Sheer Glow foundation, I knew this was a fucking mistake. I had over done it with the skincare.To the point where my foundation was not setting at all/was separating. 

My skin unfortunately looked more oily than glowing. Big, big, BIG mistake. Oh well. I tried. Never again.

So I did the rest of my make up, powdered the life out of my face trying to matte-ify it to al l hel, and then for the first time in years stacked multiple lashes together at the end of the make up routine. I had such a hard time with that too because I hadn't done something like that in so long. I knew if I only applied one set of Diamond Lashes that they wouldn't photograph well. I'm actually glad I went through with that. Despite not doing such things for years now, it reminded me why I used to do it and how much better it looks with brand eyelashes and not the cheapy Daiso ones. Recently I've went back to old make up techniques I used to do back in 2011-2013 but I've applied the skills that I've learnt last year and it just looks so much cleaner. I see the difference completely. -proud of self- 

Hair was a serious race against time. I tried to do those little separated suji curls I see a lot of the girls rock. I had completely done it on accident without the intention of that happening at all. However, the pieces weren't staying glued to where I wanted them and AS SOON as I got out of the car and into the rain my hair died. I think I need to relayer my bottom bits too so they'll curl easier. My hair is still recovering from where I fucked it up way back in 2012. Ugh.This is what happens when you cut your own hair out of bad experiences at shops/salons.

In terms of the trip and setting, rain was a huge hindrance that Saturday. This was the first time I ever attended a festival in Japan Town and it be super gross outside. I brought an Alice and the Pirates umbrella to help not get me as wet and it was a total lifesaver. No regrets bringing it. Hell it matched my outfit and wasn't boring looking at all. It was as frilly as the outfit. I don't usually get to bust out that umbrella very often since I live in California but I certainly utilized it that Saturday. 

I went over to Japan Town, bought some taiyaki breakfast for myself and others, and met up with people as they got ready. The walk over was a total work out. My legs seriously felt it in my cheap ass Yumetenbo boots that lost padding. I don't know what was crazier. Walking uphill or downhill because both were pretty horrible. Uphill was me feeling the burn (which wasn't so bad actually if I hadn't had a fashion show to do two hours later and didn't want to look like I had ran a marathon lmao). Downhill was me praying to god my feet didn't slip and be roll down a hill and into traffic. It was an truly experience. I clearly need more comfortable but fashionable shoes. My nicest and most comfortable shoes are unfortunately a frilly pink pair of Liz Lisa ankle boots that I have yet to test their limits in the city. 

Arriving at the hotel I helped people with make up. Thus realizing yet again, how shitty Sephora eye shadow palettes are. DO NOT get dark colors in those palettes. They just turn out muddy/splotchy and gross. You're so much better investing money in pigments from MAC or Sugarpill. If you get a Mac Fix +  and spray your brush to pick up the loose eye shadow (so your pigment is intense and also to prevent less fallout) it works loads better. Darker colors can be a bitch to work with because they either apply weird or worse fade through the day. I personally don't even use pressed shadows in black/gray/gunmetal colors for the sole reason that they don't pick up well and fallout is the worst. I ended up stealing someone else's pro-palette which was okay but like I said before-I HATE using black colors in pressed pigments. Fuck. That. Shit. I'm so glad I salvaged what I could eye make up wise though. I get incredibly nervous doing people's eyeliner so I let people take over in terms of that. I feel super horrible because I know people are aware that I do some bomb ass make up on myself but I'm super used to my face in comparison to others. I know they want the same quality/techniques that I use on myself but I almost have to have my own make up with me and get more practice in on others. 

Actually I think this was the first time in...three years? That I had done anyone's hair or make up.  I used to never think about any of it too seriously at all when I did it. I also used to be super proud of the work I would do on other people. However, because everyone was in the fashion show; I was incredibly nervous because my skills were so rusty and they counted for something big. I was really self-conscious and hopefully if I get more opportunities and get to use products I am a lot more confident with, I'll be able to do make up more effectively on people. At the least, I was SUPER proud of how nice Sayuri's blush turned out. I tried out the really high pink blush look and added two types of glitter on her for an overlay effect. It looked really neat with the pastel and black Sex Pot Revenge stuff! I used my NARS Angelica blush and NYX Glitter Gel with Urban Decay Heavy Metal Glitter liner over it. She had super sparkly pink cheeks all day!

Also thank you Sayuri for the cute Kiki x Lala collab Diamond Lashes. They'll be my K-Pop/Cutesy lashes. Friends yet again, contributing to my hoarding habits. Not that I mind one bit!

I did two other people's hair that morning and had a lot of help from Sayuri too because yet again, I've lost all skill when it's not my own face or hair. I could have killed someone for using hairspray on someone's hair before I needed to flip it. It was the most nerve wracking shit. The next victim I had to work on entailed having to do high side ponytail. If we hadn't been racing against time it probably would have ended up a lot nicer but I did what I could. On that note- I am ABSOLUTELY terrified of using irons on people now. I used to not have this fear at all but now I am afraid of burning someone's face off. I am sorry if I am rough with your precious scalp in advance. Please don't hate me.... 

Finally, we were out the door and on our way to the fashion show-which by the way, was royally running late as is. I didn't keep track of how long but we were late. The event after us had dropped out last minute too causing a bit of confusion which shouldn't have happened since they were after us. 


It was raining like a motherfucker as we walked out to the stage, which was completely out of everyone's control. That's nobody's fault. Mother nature how could you though?! Even though I know California needs it, good gawd couldn't you have waited until Sunday or rained all of Friday?! Regardless, I was impressed how people still made it work.

 In the rain, I finally met up with my fellow gyaru babe Jobi at we headed to the stage area and we all gathered up to get directions on what to do. It was super relieving to see Jobi because she was also doing gyaru fashion. We were the only two gyaru but I pretty much shall assume the SF comm is deadish. If anything, this event was a small attempt to scream to the world that there are still some who still low-key do it beyond a community setting. In terms of my outfit even, I was determined to show off brands that have never been show cased in the US ever before just to really shake and diversify things up. Same with Jobi who took a really neat kogal approach. She was one of the few pink babes in the show. Props to all the girls who wore light colors that weekend because the weather was nasty and ya'll bitches had no fear. 

Here's where the whole event gets critical and I'll explain what all happened and why it was SO frustrating to our coordinator for the fashion show as much as it was for all of us-Prepare for me to bitch a bit, just bare with me, it will get better after I talk about all this stuff I promise. 

The stage-first off, threw us all off. Every fashion show that any of us has had experience in has been the main stage near the pagoda. I feel like most of the anime events and fashion show were thrown off to the side this year (and from what I understand it was also like this last year)-and that's incredibly unfortunate because while I can understand why things like that were done and the stigma that comes with cosplayers/J-Fashion/ect-there's also been great things from the cosplay and J-Fashion community that have been a main event. I think it's just a mater of finding the right ambassadors and the right staff to clean it up and really enforce some policies to not only make it run smoothly but be presentable enough to change the mind of others who might have reservations of community based on bad experiences or the wrong first impression.

In terms of runway/stage directions, it was like a game of telephone. The staff kept changing directions thus, confusing the shit out of our coordinator which then in turn, confused the hell out of us models. We had to go over the directions so many times. So. Many. Times. It should have been conveyed all at once and not last minute. Directions should be set in stone and not changed multiple times. The route should have been planned days before hand. Enough said. 

On top of that situation, the music line up that was selected was out of order. I will get back on track later as to why this was such a frustrating thing but this contributed to me panicking because I knew the music line up already. So suddenly I felt like I had botched up something when I hadn't...as I was assured. Hearing the song I was supposed to walk to first really threw me the hell off. I'm sure things were labeled no? Yui's vocals were not suited for the dark death parade that walked out as the the opener first in the fashion show and it was slightly funny in my head now that I think about it. 

Because it was raining, a lot of the models who had umbrellas strutted the shit out of our walk way (I refuse to call it a runway ) while holding them but I knew it could have hindered with the photos for sure. As for the walk way we were to walk on.... Oh boy here we go with all my rage. First off, like I keep mentioning, its raining. Some of us bitches are in some high ass heels. So when someone told me there are cords/wires in front of the walk way and some very slippery flooring on the actual stage/tarps I facepalmed so hard. Not only were we confused with the directions onto where we were to go after we did the round about on the walkway but as soon as each of us got on the stage there was a line up because there were wires everywhere and I don't think any of us were quite sure where to stand/had to maneuver around shit that was in the way anyway. Personally, the walk down below the stage was fine. The stage area was a mess as much as the music line up was. Nothing was marked like it would usually be onto where to stand. I made note as I got on the stage to close my umbrella for hopefully proper pictures in hopes for some type of redeemable anything. 

It came to the point where I just did my best. And as Tim Gunn would infamously say, "Make it work." 

However despite the whole "make it work" concept being no doubt the mantra to maintain sanity backstage and on-this completely frustrated people. Why? People had been planning this show for months. Ying had carefully chosen the music to suit each style and lined us up according to style.I even think everyone there would have really appreciated even a beforehand walk-through I'm very sure. His models had been prepping for just as long as he had too. And what people don't know is while we planned this for months, our line up probably would have been a lot larger if it hadn't been promoted three weeks before the show was.The whole "make it work" thing shouldn't have even be a thing because of how carefully people were trying to plan it even weeks/months before it was even publicly announced. 

The fact that it was this disorganized beyond the control of the people who were literally in charge of that department was really was the sprinkles on the cake. I really do hope regardless of this and the shit weather that those of you that had attended still enjoyed. thank you for waiting for us and thank you for being out in the damn rain. That's some dedication. For those of you who have been the other J-Fashion shows, next time it will be better. All of us I think want a proper re-do one day, and want to do things like this more often and more effectively. There is a huge lack of J-Fashion related events or shows at events and it would be cool to change that.

Transitioning this post as to why this fashion show was so great and bringing it to a more positive/less of being bitching note-I saw a lot of sweet younger people who have known of me even before this event took place this past weekend, and seeing them excited or happy/hyped up really salvaged the entire experience for me. Every time I get sweet comments on my Instagram, FB, or even in person-I feel the pressure to be even better or be a role-model of sorts to those people. Mainly because it isn't done enough. That, and  I know how it feels to be on the other end looking up to someone and they not interacting with those who appreciate their work (being cliquey or having totally different persona online than they do in real life). I don't want to be that girl. I am by no means perfect but I really try to be as conscious as I can be about my decisions and be as raw/open/honest as possible with people. I really appreciate the support at the show. Even though they didn't know I was in it, them being excited to see me and them remember me (and me remember them!! kyaaa!! xD)  made me really happy. It made me feel like some minor model in Tokyo Girls Collection or some shit. If you guys have seen how excited the audience gets at TGC , then you know what I mean. Thank you for making me feel special? ahaha <3 

Most of us gathered up at the photo booth afterwards for photographers to take pictures. That truly salvaged the day for all of us personally. I think it made everyone feel proud/happier which I'm super glad about because like I said, some of us had been plotting for awhile for it for us not to have anything to show for it. We all took some huge group photos and then I and some other people took solo shots for anyone who asked of them.

I huge shout out to Miguel and Kulotski Dee for your photography work. I know I don't always do shout outs to my photographer friends (I REALLY SHOULD...ya'll should have business cards and fb pages so I can link them your guy's work and it be okay so I don't feel like I'm having people creep on you all) but I super appreciate them. I know there are most likely other photographers that took pictures at the booth and of the show, but I don't know where their pictures are located. Please give us your business cards so we know where to find your pictures! That way we get our photos and we can all promote your page properly with your consent! So far I just have Miguel and Kulotski's because they're on my facebook/I know of them. I super appreciate them for taking pictures because otherwise we wouldn't have any idea where to look. Because people knew me, Jobi, or others, they were able to find their pictures and feel like their hard work paid off. Here are a couple of my pictures from the show/gathering. 

Making it workkkk! Photo by Miguel 

Trying to do some old school posing that I was always told to do a couple years back ahah 
Photo by Kulotski Dee

Outfit shot. Top and Belt are D.i.a Spec, Skirt is WC, Boots are Yumetenbo, and Cardigan is Offbrand
Photo by Miguel 

Some Gyaru Magazine Esque Posing with Jobi 
Photo by Kulotski Dee


Group photo of ALMOST everyone. 
Photo by Kulotski Dee (nicked his cell pic because it fit everyone in it, I hope you do not mind sir) 





After the photo gathering, we were all pretty damn hungry and ended up deciding to get food. It was perfect ramen weather considering it was rainy. I actually was shocked to know we got into Yamada-ya without too much of a hassle. The line was crazy when we first checked and usually now a day, Yamadaya is always crazy packed. Once we were seated, we all had delicious food and I properly got to get to know people I hadn't been acquainted with through the food wait or through dining with them. Food truly brings people together I feel. My really lame weeb side came out as I figured out peeps cosplayed from the same series that I used to also cosplay from. I seriously might have to bring Sheryl back just for the fact that I've honestly never truly gotten any friends into Macross Frontier. I kind of told them about it or they already had a group to cosplay with. But I haven't made friends with someone that I didn't have to teach or push to get into it. Yay for new friends who are inspiring me to want to do things that I intended to give up on completely. It was also reaffirmed that I am the biggest prude at the table during lunch and that people have iron stomachs for spicy things. 



After food, we ended up walking around and looking at make up shit. I ran into Mari for a quick second and I was really happy to see her because it had felt like years since I had last seen her. It was a quick hi and bye but it made me really happy. 

Friends and I lurked around the mall looking at make up and stuff. I really want more Sailor Moon make up because I'm complete trash. The compacts were 'okay' in terms of price I think but I think I'm going to wait for the compact powder in the 'flat' release because it comes with refills and it's cheaper. 

After browsing around the crowds got pretty crazy and me and a couple of friends escaped into Tan Tan for some really good tea. When we first arrived into the cafe it was totally empty. However, I think us sitting there made others want to come in as well. It was a full house once we left. I felt bad for the lady in the back because it was just her! If you guys have read this blog before, you've read about how great I think Tan Tan is, so it will go without no explanation.

I'll jokingly always say my form of drinking is tea. I don't drink alcohol so if you wanna roll with me, you gotta do tea. It was fun experience to share with others. I think almost all of us except for one, got matcha green tea! The matcha at TanTan is really yummy. The cafe is a really good spot to get away from the crazy crowd in the mall and people watch. 


After tea Jobi and I decided to do PuriKura! Johnny was with us but I felt like we might have tortured him with the cute shit. Plus, I've never actually done Puri with just Jobi and that was super nice. It felt very fitting since we were in gyaru fashion. I'm not sure if she had gotten to try out the newer machines but the newer machines are awesome because they take outfit shots, and I still can't get enough of that feature. Especially when you work so hard to coordinate an outfit, it comes in handy!

I forgot what I did afterwards. I think Jobi had to race to her car to pay the meter. So it was just me and Johnny who ran into people and more friends and even met new people. Yay for new people/friends? We just sat and lurked because I was suddenly super dehydrated even though I JUST had tea. I blame the liquid lipsticks. They're really trendy right now but guys, they're super drying because they liquid matte. Basically we all just weebed out at the table and got acquainted with eachother. Which was very nice. 

Eventually some of us did part ways and the rest of us made our way back to a friend's hotel... I limped back personally because my Yumetenbo boots lost all of it's insole piece/flattened it. When we all arrived there I jacked a outlet for my charger, gave people so much shit (jokingly I promise), and met new people yet again. Which lead to us wondering what to do again. Purple Kow was something considered but because parking was god awful for everyone that didn't happen. THANKFULLY they opened a T4 on Fillmore that stays open pretty late. It's basically the previous Quickly cafe I used to raid for Takoyaki and late night lurkings years ago. A T4 just opened in my town as well and they must been opening up in a couple different locations because this one was super duper new.

So instead of eating hella meat or K-BBQ (I'm kind of glad I didn't, I seriously need to save for the Gazette =_=) we had snackies and boba instead which was a lot lighter. I wish Miguel brought Jenga like he said he usually does. Because T4 didn't have it and it would have been fun to entertain ourselves with our horrible fucked up-ness. Next time hopefully. 

That's basically my trip in a nutshell guys. I haven't been to San Francisco in a while and it felt super refreshing to be back in the Bay Area among familiarity. The area is seriously my home away from home it's where I feel most comfortable, so it's nice to hang out with friends there the most. There's always something to do. Just this time the weather was super unfortunate. 

Surprisingly because I had my hands full most of the weekend and all, I really didn't take a lot of pictures on my phone to document my trip. It's super shocking too because usually, I'm pretty attached to my phone FOR that reason alone. I take pics of everything, not this time though. Which must kind of announce that I had my hands full and had a lot of fun. 

I'll be heading to the Gazette concert on the 1st of May, and I'm hoping to maybe have a chill time exploring downtown SF and J-Town without a crazy huge event going on. The concert is a huge event but it's late at night so hopefully the weather is nice so other things can be done out and about. I'll be in a lot more comfortable clothes too. Hopefully. I'm hoping what I chose will be. 

Anyways, until next time guys!